I havent updated in forever.... Im trying to but ive bee n so busy w/ school and everything its hard to get away.

I hate my "step-dad" he's such a fucking ass hole he's miserable, so he makes life miserable for everyone around him also... He isnt technially my step dad he's my moms finacee.. there where getting married Oct. 24th but now they might not cz he an ass hole and makes everything fucked up... I HATE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH!!! On top of that i have school to worry about.. I have to get good grades cz now that im in highschool it really counts.. And my friend is super depressed and theres nothing me or anyone else can do to help her cz of the circumstances and i hate her parents cz they dont give a shit and it just makes me mad cz i love her and i would die if she ever did anything to hurt herself... life is so confusing and im only fucking 14.... jesus. Melanie is being a huge bitch to me lately she doesnt even make an attempt to be nice anymore... all she does is bitch and whine about stuff i supposivly taken or done or not done when im babysitting... Then september 11th is coming up... i dont even wanna get into that cz every time i talk about it it freaks me out and i wanna cut Osama Bin Lauden's Balls off... Vince's birthday is coming up on the 13th and i have to get him something...

Now for some better news...

my brother Kyle moved backin w/ us.. he was living w/ his dad but his dad is moving into an apartment and he doest wannaa live w/ himt here so ya... Thats cool cz Kyle drives plus jerry doesnt yell at us as much when Kyles around cz i guess hes a pussy and thinks kyle will beat him up... who knows what the Viagra popping Jerry thinks... God i hate that man... My mom was soo much cooler and nicer when he wasnt around.. hard to remember though.. jesus it was like 7 years ago... 7 years ive had to deal with the fucker.. thats to much... he needs to die already...

I need an escape...

Ashlee

Picture Credit-Chris Savage

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